The Beauty of Pain: Why I Stopped Running from It.

Did I Do This to Myself?

I wonder if I did all of this to myself. I think I did. I messaged him back that day after I came back from the cliffs. But at the same time, it felt so right. So, I don’t regret it. I learned a lot about myself. but

To what extent is this pain too extreme to feel as a human being, without knowing when it’s going to end? But I’ll accept it. It is what it is. I would be vain to think I’m too good for this pain. I will accept it. If it comes to me naturally, it carries a lesson, a gift, a valuable outcome it will leave behind once it has taught me and shown me all it needs to.

Pain Is a Teacher, Not an Enemy:

Pain is not bad, not evil. It is abrupt, direct, and unapologetic. It brings us into places within our minds we are too afraid to explore alone. Pain is simply a guide showing us around, navigating us. It can’t be helped.

Sitting with Discomfort Instead of Running from It:

If anything, it should be appreciated. It helps us see and understand more about life, existence, human experiences, and everything we are. Without it, I would feel hollow. I will not run from it. it won’t leave. It’ll just keep waiting for me until I come back to it.

I can’t run from it. I don't want to run from it. I want to see it through and reach the light at the end of the tunnel.

The Light at the End of the Tunnel:

At the end of the day, pain is not bad ,it's not evil. The beauty of pain is that it’s a guide, unapologetic and direct, leading us to the parts of ourselves we are too afraid to face alone.I don't expect it to be easy. But I also expect it to be worth it. If anything in retrospect, the pain has shown me a way in life, that no other person, experience or emotion could have. It helps me reconnect with parts of me I was too timid to face and too scared to accept.